sucks,
can someone understand the sadness im going through now ): its so sucky,
everything is failing for me. the compt are coming and then we're trg really hard. in the end, i get myself super tired and i want to fall asleep immediately when i reach home. which i obviously cant cos ive hw. im scared for tml la. trg until 6 reach home bathe makan and stuff 7 plus. i need to pia hist sbq and math hol hw in tireness. haix
and then ive to
give up on smth that ive held on to for so long. its always liddat.
it takes two hands to clap, like what zb says.
my hand is there, ur hand
was there, and then it disappear. i donno whats wrong,
i keep saving it, u keep destroying it. i saved it again, u destroyed it again. they say you're insensitive, u didnt notice my feelings. but ive given you so many so many chances. its like saving it yet seeing it destroyed is hurting ok. to me, not to you of course. i was thinking
maybe giving up might make me happier. will it? both ways i hurt myself. if i dont give up, i end up hurting myself. if i give up, i end up losing you and regretting and hurting myself too. so, what shd i do? great qn, no one knows the answer.
and then its coming back you know.
they say im loyal, what crap. i arent loyal. i dont want it to come back you know. but
it keep coming back, now and then. then just cant get it out, u know. it sucks, its getting
uncomfortable and sucky for me to see it, then yea i had to. cos, you know, i donwant to see myself destroying it. and i cannot.
its not normal. its crazy.
and then i cant get it.
i wanted it, i know, at least it has some
significance. but i didnt get it. instead i get the stupid sucky thing. but lucky i was ripped off it, and now i got another one. at least its not that bad.
but i still wanted that. but nvm,
my zb did me proud anw.
he helped me to fulfil my wish (:
erm, what else? prelims coming in like few months, followed by o's. shit, im getting scared lol. i mean seriously, i want to do well. ive been doing hw and practising math, which i dont use to really do last year. i do hope the common test this time round shows me
some significant improvement in my results. or else, id
seriously breakdown.
i think my blogskin and song is nice (: but the msg the blogskin and song wants to convey are
two diff thing. nvm forget it, i'll try to find a nice yet suitable blogskin but i shant change the song unless i find another nicer one. i know im always changing my blogskin and song, but who cares? and dont be worried if ur confused, cos this part is actually some
secret. some ppl know some, some ppl dont. some ppl know all.
the names are confidential so i make it super secretive. whatever its, i just want to blabber out. it'll feel better?
going to school is so stressed ):
