20080427
stressed
10:03 PM
i deduced that i got sick bcos im under too much stress. i dont know la, ive been lagging behind subjects by one topic. when ppl are doing graphing techniques, i just finish functions. when people are doing gases, i just struggled through volumetric analysis. when ppl start pondering about forces, i just started understanding what forces is all about (since i was sleeping). i could nv catch up at this rate oh gosh.
and im stressed, bcos i just cant seem to get what ms maya wants. that few steps. i dont know la, its just so depressing and discouraging to see her shake her head everytime i reach that few steps. and the smile ive been trying v hard to put up on my face(and looking sincere at the same time) just disappear. i really need to find out whats wrong. and i cant do combined dance steps, that part where 200plus dancers all stood on the stage and do some western dance steps. i dont even rmb them. but whatever since malay dance is the second row from the back and with my height, even if im in the first row, ppl wont notice me too ><
but im feeling better alr. thanks for all concern : D tml is a sucky day. sch's supposed to end up 1230. everyone's happy about halfday cos school will end earlier for them, not alot. but at least an hour plus. but for us, school's ending 50mins late. wow like what an interesting half day. URGH. and stephanie has told me that my tutee shafikah told her that she likes me more when stephanie helped to teach me when i wasnt around for caal on wed cos im sick. so sweet of her : D so for that sentence, i will consider buying her smth this coming wed HAHA
i think thats all. i will update soon again, i hope. if ive the time, that is (:
oh and masu, aka my love rival. cowman just loves to stalk me HHA
20080423
sick
10:44 PM
this is going to be a quick post cos im supposed to go off and sleep now. since im a patient! yes, im officially sick. not lovesick, not cos someone ignored me yesterday and treated me as transparent. okay i shall really heck him alr. he's irritatingly irritating.
okay anw, i still dont know how i got sick. but anw, its great to skip sch : D i couldnt catch up on alot of homework though (that shows how much im lagging behind) but still i manage to catch up on some. ive been sneezing today which is so sucky urgh urgh urgh. okay, i wanted to pon another day of school but tml there's more choreographs of umbrella dance, and then need to hand in pi. and i promise miaoqun even if im sick i will drag myself to school bcos her 400 cantabs or so are with me! so i cant let our efforts go to waste.
okay what else. i reached my target of 13smth for 2.4 : D 13:58 haha, although its like super tyco but im still super happy. ive been jumping an all-time high record (for myself) for sbj of 180cm. and im really proud of it. but bcos im sick and im weak today, i jumped like 170cm today when practising. and i feel really worried. what if i couldnt recover before my 5items ><
dance tml mrng at 730. dance tml afternoon at 4. dance on fri (aristal tech run) from 4 to 8 i suppose. dance on sat at pa. gawd im so busy. i dont even know if im free to go nic's house this sat. i shall try, afterall its a fortnight ao1 outing! :D so looking forward to it. i miss sam, nic, elson, pinxuan, xiaoxi blahblahblah. and they're mostly coming to support us for aristal! so i must try to go :D YAY
oh im sad that i lost all my tys. phy, chem, amath and emath. i only found my eng one. its like oh, it has been with me for 2years, it survived olevels with me. and its gone. its just feeling a bit weird.
okay enough said, its really late bye. i shall rest and wake up earlier than ppl to dance
20080417
moody
10:55 PM
just a quick post. im supposed to redraft my pi but whatever. i came across sam's nick : my heart is left in njc. and then i came across your profile so yea the moody part of me just came out. and so ive no mood to redraft pi.
samantha, yea i will keep ur heart safe haha. actually what she said just sums up my feelings for this year. although im still in nj, but the one of the best times in my life are gone : njc pae 08A01. i dont know why la, but seniors have told me your og/first pae class would be the closest to you, and its v true in my case. i really like 08s21 alot, seriously but i dont understand why when they're here, ao1 must be gone.
and then i came across your profile in friendster. it has been 3years since, and i just somehow couldnt let it go. i hope it hasnt been like a burden to you. i thought i understood you so much you know, and then obviously she sees you in a different light too, same with me, different from others. she knows how to appreciate you too. so yea, thats why the word underSTOOD instead of understand. bcos she's here to replace me off alr.
bcos i cant stand my dearest being stolen, unless you give me another dearest. in these cases, its quite impossible. no replacement.
oh, and by the way, ive read enough, ive seen enough, and now i want enough. but when is now coming.
20080414
busy
7:01 PM
i know im being repetitive and repeating the word ' busy' several times a day. but im seriously busy. haha wondering why ive time to come and blog? bcos i sacrifice my hw to do so yea because masu asked why i havent updated my blog for so long. so realising that there're ppl out there who loves me and wants to see updates for me, i came to blog :D
today is a happy happy day (: haha, firstly, happy birthday to kheng and jiaqiang! ((((((((: they're so cool. same class, same combi, same bday! okay anw, haha i know ao1 ppl havent heard me mention this person for a long long time. but anw i will still mention. today he talked to me okay! WAHAHAHAH and my face was like super red. and i couldnt stop laughing and giggling at one side. and he kept looking at me instead of the others and kept asking why i laugh. i was so red and my heart was beating so damn fast. and i was stuttering when i talked to him, although i tried to hide my nervousness. haha, its a pretty day :D and i called nicholas, samantha, xiaoxi and lissya immediately haha. and im telling zhixin online now. and tml i will spread to raja and yihfang, yanhui and yitong and jiaqiang maybe sam can spread around to elson and pinxuan for me. im just so happy HAHAHA. now he knows my existence. haha i wonder if he will say hi to me tml if he sees me, or will he just forget? ><
anyway, for malay dance, finally im in umbrella dance. before that i was quite disappointed la, although i seriously dont mind. but i like the dance alot so i was quite disappointed. and was quite emoing away. and i was super pissed last wed bcos i had lots of hw to do. but anyway, im in now, and im happy :D aristal preview/vetting went on smoothly on sat morning. haha, it was quite interesting. i got a few steps wrong cos i was really nervous. its like i havent performed infront of a large group for 6whole years. its a wonderful feeling (: yep and after vetting, we went to kap. saw a whole group of soccer guys. but malay dance outnumbered them :D oh and not to mention that they were screaming loudly away when they went into the ice bath or smth. the scream was horrible. but comical haha. ferleen didnt go dance lunch ): i was expecting to see her. haha the highlight that day i guess, was the q&a session with ms cheng. haha she told us all she know and could haha. that was so brave. i wouldnt say out everything about me if im in her position.
and i gave up uploading some photos to make my post prettier bcos its taking forever. oh! and cailing jie and jiandong gor's baby is a boy! and jimmy's baby is a girl! :D by the man, i think that cowman has eyes that're too big. besides that, im actually ok with him. but bcos of masu, he's being teased!
AND TAKE LOTS OF CARE XIAOXI : DDDDD BE THE HYPER CRAZY GIRL LA
20080406
busy
10:05 PM
hey man, jc life is really hectic and busy. esp when im in nj now. okay, whatever, i gonna post a short update on myself so that ppl who misses and loves me can know about me :D
-okay i went to the lib today and borrowed lots of love stories. haha yea so thats lots of crying again, provided i even have time to read them.
-smth random : i jumped 183cm for standing board jump last last friday! and i fell backwards and my reading became 160cm instead. oh man, i hope this doesnt happen to me for the real thing.
-ive got my nj attendance card. its really cool haha the tapping and everything, provided i do rmb to tap. juehong however hates it, bcos prob it will always record her as late? but its quite surprising she is rarely late these days.
-dance schedule is damn hectic. as in its still 3trg per week. but we must really hurry and choreograph finish the dances and got all the poses right. bcos aristal is just 1month plus away.
-2.4km run is soon. i havent run for so long, ever since i stop badmt trg and finished napfa last year. ohman, i hope i can still run below 15mins. my expectations arent really high now since im no longer a sportswoman. im a dancer now :D
-school is boring with lectures and tutorials style only. i prefer the classroom style. urgh but whatever.
-my bro just got his pay and he said he's going to treat us to sakura. im stunned, haha.
thats about it, enough said. byebye (:
oh and happy bday to yanhui, xiaoqian and daddy! :D
