okay the emo part, anyway its quite rare that i actually post twice in a day. i wanted to post it on another blog, but aiyah nvm its so troublesome setting up everything so yea.
its kind of emo really. if you know that im going to talk about you and you dont want to read on, please feel free to go away.
but this is gonna be really general.
i was just wondering, how many times can you say sorry until it has become insincere already. it somehow seems to be similar to 'i love you'. just look, 'i am sorry' and 'i love you' are all eight-letters words. okay actually i think im trying to force out a link between them. anyway, i believe 'i love you' is too precious to be said and repeated every now and then. and i really hate to hear it so often 'cause it makes these three special words sound v general and just not special anymore. i guess its the same with ' i am sorry'.
i dont know whats wrong luh. but i realise i kept saying im sorry for any small lil things ive done. so much so that it has become insignificant, up to the point that you can actually tell me not to apologise anymore. i guess luh, its probably 'cause you felt that there's no point since there's no real meaning or real sincerity in saying it. i shdnt have abused the use of these words.
and i realise that i always dont learn my lesson. or rather i take forever to learn. whatever happened in the past, i really just forget. time sort of like really brings away with it all the pain and hurt and whatever not. which i think isnt good. 'cause i'll never learn my lesson that way. some people thought its quite good, 'cause i forgive and forget and move on with my life. but the moment i forget, i will repeat the same mistake again and i dont seem to be able to grow out of it. my teacher used to tell me this : ' once bitten, twice shy. twice bitten, you can go and die luh' really, i thought it really makes sense. its twice alr, shd i go and die haha. okay anyway casual remark, i wont commit suicide, dont worry about me.
but i feel that we always dont realise our mistakes until someone pointed out at us and until we fall down or fail and then we realise what we've been doing all along is wrong. and i really thank everyone single one out there who has pointed out to me where ive gone wrong, so that i will walk the right path from that point onwards.
i cant swear that i'll be able to change fast. 'cause thats who im, and i behave like that. it may be my flaws, but no one is perfect luh please. i'll change it, and i need time. random but i want a big big hug from lissya soon D: thats one of the ways to make myself feel happier. and thanks lissya. really (: for always giving me lots of big big hugs and forgiving me everytime i say smth i shldnt. its 'cause of such wonderful friends around that makes me realise that i shd stop, in some sense, bullying them. lissya, can you just cover my mouth next time.
somehow, i feel that its gonna be awkward. lets wait and see...
