after reading some blog posts, i realise people like to post v cheem stuff, things that are really profound which i couldnt quite grasp. and some of my friends' posts are really emo. sometimes, why can't we just look at things more simply? it makes everyone happier you know.
09 has been a great year for me, i dont know why. probably when i start growing older, and hopefully being more mature haha, i start to look at things from a different light. its not that i dont have my sad times whatever not, but its that i choose to ignore them and remember only the happy moments. 'cause ive learnt from past experience that there's no point weeping and crying and sobbing over smth that most likely couldnt be changed. thats why you cry right, 'cause you know you cannot do anything to salvage the situation. and i always tell myself this, after i cry, i must get up again, forget about it and move on with my life.
it sucks to see friends emoing and being sad. seriously, life is never easy and i used to feel that its so hard you know. 'cause ive to laugh and smile like nothing happened but deep down i actually dont feel like smiling. 'cause i just want my friends to not get affected. but i started to change. i dont know if ive turned more selfish in a way, or ive just learnt to love myself more. i dont force myself to laugh for the sake of laughing, and surprisingly it gets increasingly easy for me to smile and laugh, truly, sincerely, from the bottom of my heart.
really, if we just look around us, look at the small little things that happened, be appreciative of them, im sure you can find smth to make you genuinely smile for that day (:
to all friends, really be happy. esp the one emoing away you know who you're. and those that has emo posts too and that girl who is having a moodswing or whatever not. 'cause its really when you're happy that i'll be happy too (:
