a random thought.
seeing everyone's blog link, i was thinking if i should change mine to smth more fanciful and cool. should mine be smth like lizhululu (haha for those who understands kawaitian language i.e. lissya, saniah, gwen and me) or lizhuhohiheha. (haha this one is lame) come'on people, give me some cool suggestions. BTW I DONT WANT THINGS LIKE LIZHU-THE-TSUNAMI OR LIZHU-THE-CUCKOO.
another random thought.
why is everyone not updating their blog. alison chew, the one who's supposed to be most active and gosh what happen to her blog. wkb closed down his blog (oh well like his updates were v frequent in the first place, haha but there's one less channel to know if he's emoing or not :P ) pp claimed his pw got lost, and the camera i installed on him tells me he's merely just giving an excuse by telling a lie. nghia's blog is stuck at the vietnamese post i cant understand. ok, for those who at least bothered to update, i shall not comment on you guys :D
one last random thought.
i really wonder if you know that ive been still frequently visiting your blog and reading every other line, trying to find out if you're happy or not. and my conclusion is you indeed are, besides all the mugging you've to do and stuff like that.
i always have this urge to comment but i dont want. or maybe i dont dare to. ive sort of disappeared from ur life for the past few months and i dont want to appear again cause i see that ur happy the way ur life is now. i seriously dont want to accept the fact that we've drifted apart, too far apart.
ive tried you know, trying to maintain a positive attitude and stuff, but this time it just doesnt seem to work. and i also dont know why. its a pity that it ended this way. i never thought it would be like this when we knew each other. yes, we may be different in one thousand ways, and i might not have a good impression of you beforehand, but i really enjoyed the few months we spent together. short-lived happiness.
i see you online now, and im like contemplating whether i shd talk or stuff or not. i cant seem to find a common topic already. its funny how two people who were that close are reduced to strangers with a mere few words. i dont want this to be another regret. i know i always say that i normally dont regret cause i dont believe in doing things i'll regret later on in life.
i just miss the old times. and i dont understand what made us drift apart so much. its cause you were there during my down-est moments that made you so special. its cause you're so important to me and im able to share both my ups and downs with you that makes you so awesome. i know whatever you say isnt a lie, but whats this. what happened in between... i want to know.
